THIS WAS THE MOST RIDICULOUS NIGHT OF MY LIFE WHY DO I HAVE A WHOLE CREW IN ENGLEWOOD NOW WHY HAVEN’T I SLEPT WHY DID A STRANGER I MET AT A BUS STOP BUY ME A WHOLE SET OF G2 PENS
it went really well!!!! people liked it!!! PEOPLE CAME ON STAGE FOR AUDIENCE PARTICIPATION!!!
there will be pictures eventually in the next handful of days
I bought cocoa powder and cinnamon and tomorrow I will try a chocolate peanut butter banana green smoothie~
today I need to convince myself to go to the library downtown and try to get a library card but I am also unmedicated so I don’t really feel like doing anything but sleeping all day??
Just got my tickets to see The Wonder Years and the Story So Far in October in my college town.
Which not only means a great show with my best friends but I get to see everyone I miss so goddamn desperately.
one of my former good friends arguing with me and calling me an israel apologist eventually just told me that my yarn twists are appropriative (after first calling them dreads and saying they’re fucking racist), insisting that i’m white, and telling me that i make PoC uncomfortable by “ignoring” the fact that i’m white passing
have i ever
he literally said “You. Are. White.” to me
he knows that shit hurts me because we’ve been friends
he knows have fucked up identity issues
all of this is bullshit and makes me hate myself
when i was in belize they laughed at us and called us white
when i’m in america people tell me i’m lying to ~be cool~
have i no right to my family and to our history and their stories and struggles
i was raised in a belizean family and spend every holiday with my belizean family
but i’m not allowed to connect to it at all.
kriol is just “broken english”
my home country is just an exotic destination for a cruise ship
when i told my mom i was dating a boy from texas she immediately asked if he knew i was part black because white people don’t like to be surprised by blackness. and she was scared.
you have nothing to worry about, mama
they wouldn’t have believed me anyway
Thursday, 10 Jul 2014
Disappointment in a friend or lover and/or the realization that you have been neglecting your own needs for socializing, affection, and companionship is indicated. In either case, loneliness and feelings of desolation may arise. Perhaps you are sacrificing pleasure and love for the sake of achievements or to meet responsibilities. However, if you find yourself really unhappy right now, you probably need to reassess the balance in your life between work and play, between emotional needs and practical concerns.
i wanna go to the thrift store because it’s half price monday but i lent justin my transit card so he could get to work
I’m not drinking super smoothies because I want to lose weight. Losing weight isn’t even my fitness goal (my goal is to be able to stomp a grown man to death if need be).
I’m excited about smoothies because a lot of the time I don’t have the motivation to make myself food, so I often just don’t eat. And when I do it’s quick, shitty processed food with little nutritional value that just makes me feel depressed and sluggish.
Starting my day off with a smoothie makes me feel energized and ready to take on the day and gives me some sense of control over how I feel. THAT’S what I love about smoothies.
Also because it’s like an acceptable way for adults to eat baby food.